It’s Just a Game! Or is it.

IMG_4702When I think back to my twenties watching professional sports, I think of laughter and carefree fun with friends and family. We all enjoyed the spirit of competition, watching these men and women fight and strive to be their best. Of course back then, a game was just a game. At the end of it we all went about our business and started our week without a second thought to what game had been won or lost.

These days my reality is a bit different. Of course I’m still a spectator of sorts, but being a spouse of someone who is directly related to the sporting world, a game now is not just a game. Something has happened. These aren’t just athletes and coaches that go out and entertain us week after week. These are human beings that have families and lives outside of what we see on the television.

It’s very easy to draw a conclusion based on the highlight reel that is shown to the world. Wether through social media, television, or print, assuming that life is easier or sweeter than anybody else’s is just not accurate.

I can’t speak for other’s journey’s, but I’m in a unique position to experience events and people a little differently. What I can tell you is, there’s a lot of sacrifice that happens behind the scenes. I know, I know, we all make sacrifices for the well being of our families for now and for the future. But when you’re thrown into a public forum where your moves are followed by many, I think that there’s a perception that “lucky” breaks have gotten them more.

It’s crazy now when I watch a game or match. I try to enjoy it for the pure pleasure of competition, but it’s just not the same. I care so much about the athletes and coaches, wether I know them or not, and I put my husband in this category as well. I want so much for them to do well because I’ve experienced their hours, days and weeks away from home, as well as the high’s and low’s, the set backs and disappointments that come with the job. Although I think that the athlete’s and coaches would see the journey differently, as a supportive family member I think we definitely take the process a bit more personally.

After watching today’s Seahawks game, I’m once again reminded that in our triumphant moment that is a win, there’s the other side that is the agony of defeat, of course I’ve had the privilege of feeling this first hand with Super Bowl 49…So as much as we talk about, analyze and judge the moments that have taken place, lets also remember that these are regular people just trying to make a living.

With that said, the journey that is the “supportive partner” is a whole other story. Maybe for another day another post. For now I’m happy with celebrating a win. xoxo Go Hawks!

Back to Reality…

FullSizeRenderThere’s something about the holidays that transports me into la la land. For two weeks I feel that I’m basically floating. Between crazy family moments, Star Wars marathon’s, New Years and the NFL playoff picture (husband’s involved with the Seahawks,) these two weeks are fun, relaxing and exhausting all at the same time. It’s a time that is none like any other time of the year, and once the new year starts, it leaves me sad that the two weeks have flown by.

So it’s a new year, now what!? I guess it really is a new beginning, a rebirth, that every year we’re given the chance to change things up. Maybe not huge life changing moments, but small changes that will shift our lives for the better. So that over time those small changes lead to big one’s.

About nine month’s ago I left and closed a pilates business that I had had for over 20 years. It was a huge decision for me for many different reasons. One, leaving a group of women that had truly become my family was extremely difficult. The comfort and joy that they brought me would probably be something that I would not be able to re-create in another business. Two, leaving behind an independence that I had created for myself was something very unfamiliar to me. I’ve never not earned my own money, and never not owned my own business. Making a transition into being “just a mom and wife,” however short that title may last, was uncharted.

These last nine months have been fun, exciting, difficult and frustrating all at the same time. Many lessons have taken place and honestly they really didn’t hit me till the end of the year. I’m in this unique opportunity to take advantage and do whatever it is I want to do. Not do what other’s think I SHOULD do, or stop myself because of the judgment and perception of others opinions. I’m honestly done with that thought process. It curbs my creativity and honestly I don’t have the strength to deal with others insecurities being put on me.

So here I am “back to reality” in this new beginning… Starting with my blog, I really do enjoy writing and expressing what I feel and sharing fashion, interior design and life experiences. I’m going to change Show and Tell Me a bit. Making it more “real” on what’s happening with me and around me, I think will fulfill me more than just writing my opinions on fashion etc. Of course keeping my privacy will be a balancing act, but I think this process will unfold in a way that not only will light me up creatively, but maybe will also inspire you to find your own journey.

I’m excited for 2016. For someone who has never been keen on the “unknown,” I’m looking forward to peeling back the layers and:

Work hard.

Talk less.

Do what I feel is right.

Learn from my mistakes.

Build people up.

Laugh often.

Stop complaining.

Invest in myself.

Dream big

Plan ahead

and Love unconditionally.

Here’s to my new reality. xoxo