There’s something about the holidays that transports me into la la land. For two weeks I feel that I’m basically floating. Between crazy family moments, Star Wars marathon’s, New Years and the NFL playoff picture (husband’s involved with the Seahawks,) these two weeks are fun, relaxing and exhausting all at the same time. It’s a time that is none like any other time of the year, and once the new year starts, it leaves me sad that the two weeks have flown by.
So it’s a new year, now what!? I guess it really is a new beginning, a rebirth, that every year we’re given the chance to change things up. Maybe not huge life changing moments, but small changes that will shift our lives for the better. So that over time those small changes lead to big one’s.
About nine month’s ago I left and closed a pilates business that I had had for over 20 years. It was a huge decision for me for many different reasons. One, leaving a group of women that had truly become my family was extremely difficult. The comfort and joy that they brought me would probably be something that I would not be able to re-create in another business. Two, leaving behind an independence that I had created for myself was something very unfamiliar to me. I’ve never not earned my own money, and never not owned my own business. Making a transition into being “just a mom and wife,” however short that title may last, was uncharted.
These last nine months have been fun, exciting, difficult and frustrating all at the same time. Many lessons have taken place and honestly they really didn’t hit me till the end of the year. I’m in this unique opportunity to take advantage and do whatever it is I want to do. Not do what other’s think I SHOULD do, or stop myself because of the judgment and perception of others opinions. I’m honestly done with that thought process. It curbs my creativity and honestly I don’t have the strength to deal with others insecurities being put on me.
So here I am “back to reality” in this new beginning… Starting with my blog, I really do enjoy writing and expressing what I feel and sharing fashion, interior design and life experiences. I’m going to change Show and Tell Me a bit. Making it more “real” on what’s happening with me and around me, I think will fulfill me more than just writing my opinions on fashion etc. Of course keeping my privacy will be a balancing act, but I think this process will unfold in a way that not only will light me up creatively, but maybe will also inspire you to find your own journey.
I’m excited for 2016. For someone who has never been keen on the “unknown,” I’m looking forward to peeling back the layers and:
Do what I feel is right.
Learn from my mistakes.
Build people up.
Invest in myself.
and Love unconditionally.
Here’s to my new reality. xoxo